Only for a week or two. Just enough time for me to take care of my health and my spirit.
I received some troubling results from my blood work last Monday. I've already seen several doctors and spent many nights in fear and worry. I will have more blood work done in the next two weeks, so if you pray, please pray for a complete healing of my body.
As I drove home from work today, I wondered how much more I could take. How much more sadness? How much more tragedy? How much more confusion?
I don't know if I've been this close to breaking before...I certainly feel like I'm plumbing the depths of my human experience.
Yet when I walked in my door, sat on my floor, and prayed, I felt something like peace descend on my heart.
This world, so terrifying and so exhilarating, encompasses far more than I can see, far more than any doctor can diagnose, far more than the sadness, the confusion, and the fear that can so easily creep into my life.
I prayed to God this evening, and I know he/she hears me. I know that he/she sits beside me in my tears and my confusion, and so, although there is so much I don't understand, I rest in this simple truth...God is here.
Amidst all the confusion I'm facing right now, breakfast has been a sweet comfort. I wake up each morning and tell myself that I can affirm my presence by feeding my body well. Today I had an omelet with a whole wheat bagel and almond butter. Tomorrow, I feel like making pancakes.
I decided to share a few of my favorite breakfast treats in this post. I do hope you enjoy.
I'll be back soon....once life settles down. Thank you for your kind words, your thoughts and your prayers. I need them more than you know.
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